Carousel of Love (2015) Album Lyrics

Carousel of Love
 
Carousel of love
Keep me from the places I go out
I was feeling smug
‘Til he wiped my whole world out
 
All that’s left are pieces of me
Dancing on the ceiling
Upside down and downside up
Keeping the carousel spinning

 
What is right-side up? 
To whom is reality singing? 
Did I make this up?
Reality, the dreamers gravity
 
All that’s left are pieces of me
dancing on the ceiling
Downside up and right side down
Keeping reality breathing
 
Carousel of love
Keep me from the places I go out
I was feeling smug
I was feeling so smug
 
All that’s left are pieces of me
Dancing on the ceiling
Upside down and downside up
Keeping the carousel breathing
 
So Far From Oh Well
 
I’m rose hued and I get unglued
Hearts and kittens I think of you
Don’t know why I can’t forget you
And it’s a shame
 
Tins and whistles and paper too
Irish songs and I think of you
I wish long to be clear of you
Through and through
                                                                                                                          
Crystals spin and the thoughts of him
Line my heart like a safety pin
Other boys become ghosts of him
And it’s a shame
 
Paper Songs were meant to get lost
And your voice it has turned to frost
Still your muse it is dangerous            
To my heart
 
I wonder where you are
If you’re doing well
I wonder how’s your heart
Did you break the spell?
 
I am doing fine, but I am
So far from oh well
I can’t find my way out of the spell
 
Why can’t seven years turn to dust?
Hearts and tears turn to paper mush?
Even though I have lost the lust
Still there’s a thread
 
Wouldn’t say I procrastinate
Crusty people don’t like to wait
And to them I am always late
It makes me sad
                                                                                                                    
Paper Songs were meant to get lost
And your voice it has turned to frost
Still your muse it is dangerous
To my heart
                                                                                                                     
Crystals spin and the thoughts of him
Line my heart like a safety pin
Other boys become ghosts of him
Then fall apart
 
I wonder where you are
If you’re doing well
I wonder how’s your heart
Did you break the spell?
 
I am doing fine, but I am
So far from oh well
I can’t find my way out of the spell
 
            Little boy gonna get lost from me
            He hits the wall and his knuckles bleed
            I can’t be what he really needs
            And it’s not my place
            And I know
 
            Lost little little boy
            Lost in hell
            It’s not my job to break the spell
            But I hurt my throat with the battle yell
            And it’s not my place
            Beside him
            And it’s not my place, but still…
 
I wonder where you are
If you’re doing well
I wonder how’s your heart
Did you break the spell?
 
I am doing fine, but I am
So far from oh well
I can’t find my way out of the spell
 
Fleur d’Vortex
 
I am not the one you think I am
With the sweet little demeanor that's paled again
In the sun
In the sun
In the sun
In the rain
 
I do not trust the other ones
The ones with muscle, fire, and gun
I will outrun
Outrun the sun
And it's reign
 
A ticking clock
Of stubborn stock
Outrun
Outrunning
All of us
 
The guiltiest ones
Never get caught
They must be
They must be stopped
 
Around the bend
And back again
Around the bend
And back again
 
Take me for a ride
A trial spin
Take me for a child
Spit me out again
 
I am not afraid to live truthfully
It's the difference you see
Between you and me
Covet my light
Yet fear me
 
Forgive
Forgive
It's what I do
Make amends
Make more room
Clean it up with a dusting broom
Wash the gloom
 
Take me to the grave
Bury my lace
Flowers that fade
Soon turn to gray
 
There I will lay
My dying day
Pray the earth
My soul to keep
Then blow away
 
Around the bend
And back again
Around the bend
And back again
 
Take me for a ride
A trial spin
Take me for a child
Spit me out again
 
            Twelve angry eyes look to the sun
            Twelve angry eyes search for the blades
            Of the carpenter’s sons and daughters
 
            Twelve hungry bears rough ‘em and run
            Twelve hungry bears temper the blade
            While the hunters run
 
            Doesn’t smoke the darkness out of me
 
I am not the one you think I am
With the sweet little demeanor that's paled again
In the sun
In the sun
In the sun
In the rain
 
I am not afraid to live truthfully
It's the difference you see
Between you and me
Covet my light
Yet fear me
 
Dispassionate clock
Weathered by rust
Wields arms of stone
That never stop
 
Titanic storms
Of the fierce ticking clock
Raise a wall of dust
That shrouds all of us
 
Around the bend
And back again
Around the bend
And back again
 
Take me for a ride
A trial spin
Take me for a child
Spit me out again
 
Fire
 
Fire, I promise someday
I will rekindle your flame
Now I'm seeking water
So Fire, please be tame
 
Every time this heart of mine
Gets locked up in the slippery slime
The pace gets slow then fast
Like all the horses Tori Amos rode
 
Fire, I promise one day
You and I will dance again
Down by the blue water
Fire, you'll rage again
 
I still need you
And I will feed you
Little by little
My strength regain
 
Every time this heart of mine
Gets locked up in the slippery slime
The pace gets slow then fast
And all I want to do is run and hide
 
            Earth erodes and only time befriends the sandless oaths 
            Hearts like mine that know the codes
            The boorish odes
            Melodious modes of moorish brackish wine
            Upon which others took a shine
            While clothes got worn under the sighs
            Got lost again in wind and pine
            The hopeless, Fire breathing kinds
 
Fire, if you can hear me
Fire, come near me
I found water
It's blue like the center your flame
It filled me up and then
I found water
It’s blue like the center of your flame
Come fill me up again
 
Rose Red
 
Cassidy make me like a resident
Give my life some precedence
Help me see the good today
 
Anthony help me find my inner truth
Stick it to my heart with glue
Help me when I cannot pray
 
The Lord gonna save you
The Lord gonna make you a sweater
The Law can’t save you
The Law won’t treat you better
Well, alright
I won’t go down without a fight
 
Campground take me to a higher ground
Too much rain is pouring down
I can’t see the sky right now
 
Vicinity bring my life felicity
Spread it to my family
Help us feel the holy power
 
The Lord gonna save you
The Lord gonna make you a sweater
The Law can’t save you
The Law won’t treat you better
Well, alright
I won’t go down without a fight
 
            Anxiety without a clue
            Brainwashing
            People staring out at you
            It’s all gonna be over soon
 
The Lord gonna save you
The Lord gonna make you a sweater
The Law can’t save you
The Law won’t treat you better
Well, alright
 
True
           
“What is truth?”
Said the scissors to the glue
“If I don't cut, can you still be you?”
 
Well I don't care if you want to try out being something new
I just hope you'll always line up when I line up next to you
 
“What is change?”
Said the moth to the clue
“If I don't fly toward the light, can you still reveal truth?”
 
Well I don't care if you want to try out being something new
I just hope you'll always line up when I line up next to you
 
            Like fish swim under water
            Because they like the furry feeling of algae in the water
            I swim under water when the sun goes down
            When the sun goes down
            I swim under water when the sun goes down
            I swim under water when the sun goes
 
I don't know what I'm meant to know
But I've been there too
In the places that line you
 
I just hope you'll always line up when I line up next to you
I just hope you'll always line up when I line up next to you
When I line up next to you
When I line up next to you
When I line up next to you
 
Caterpillar Song
 
The Caterpillar said, “I’ve crossed this line before, chrysalizing ‘til my bones were sore.  Maybe this time I’ll get it right, cocoon my wings until they’re ready for flight.
 
I’ve seen the moths fly for the sun, on a never-ending search for the One.  Some choose the candle and are bound to her flames, others the limelight, they get trapped and enslaved.”
 
The Rabbit said, “I’ve dug this hole before; burrowing ‘til my paws were sore.  Maybe this time I’ll get it right, go so far through the earth I descend to the night.
 
I’ve seen the worms slide through the ground, on a never-ending search for the profound.  Some go so deep they get stuck in the mud; Others so high, they get dried out in the dust.
 
I believe in miracles, I believe in life
I believe in seeing what is unseen in the light
He believes in faerie tales, heaven up above
I just want to be derailed and find myself in love
 
            Pale pink ladies with pink parasols
            Will try to curtail you
            So keep keeping on
            They live in white picket fences
            So keep up your defenses
            She isn’t you, she isn’t me 
            She’s just a simple mind trick
            So be careful what you see
 
Met a wise one on the road
She said, “Wanderer tell me, what do you know?”
“I’m a seeker,” I said, “Come looking for truth.
But I’m weary, I ache, got holes in my boots.”
 
“Daughter,” she laughed. “Come look in my eyes.”
And deep within I saw oceans and skies.
But the thing that shook me most, sure rattled my bones
Was the vision of my being reflected in her own.
 
Now, I believe in miracles, I believe in life
I believe in seeing what is unseen in the light
He believes in faerie tales, heaven up above
I just want to be derailed and find myself in love
 
There is hope in this future of ours
In this finger paint galaxy of cardboard stars
We will dwell in ecstasy when we can truly see
The Sun, the Moon, the Earth burst forth from you and me

Yes, truly we’re the lightning
Truly we’re the dark
Water in our Being
Fire in our Heart
 
At night we shine sheer radiance
Horizon our own sails
Our divinity is emptiness
The whispered song of whales
 
So when you fly for the sun
And when you search for the one
If you get stuck in the mud
 
Find yourself in love
Find yourself in love
Find yourself in love
Sweet one
 
Aweofij
 
I want to marry beside the ocean
Or I will never marry at all
If I can't find that simple sanctuary
Then I will gladly spend my days alone
 
I've been holding onto holding onto
Holding onto holding
And it's surely not the strongest way to go
'Cause I'm always in the middle
And I’m turning into turning into
Turning into someone I don't know
 
I was feeling good in the first place
So why’d I let you get me down get me down
Everything I do is a recipe for crying
And everything else is a foolish clown
And I am the reason that I get stuck
And it cuts me up
 
If I’m being honest
I'd like to see you
In a courtyard in the springtime
With your turquoise smile
I'd hold my hand out
And hope you take it
Illuminated by the clock
We looked at as it chimed
 
There was a sculpture
Made of steel
It disappeared before I changed my mind
I’d like to go there
Make it reappear
Hold you close and I would kiss you this time
Hold you close and I would kiss you this time
 
If factories were bad in the first place
Why do we keep them spitting terrible gray into the world
But gray is the color that turns my mind turns my eyes
Makes me fall in love and turns me on
I am the color that makes red hide
And I don't why
And I don’t know why
I am the reason that I get stuck
And it cuts me up
And it cuts me up
 
If I’m being honest
I thought I saw you
Opening your heart to me
I’d like to hold it
But in reality
It's colors do not match my turquoise dream
 
I’m tired of the middle
And you’re turning into turning into
Turning into someone I don't know
I’ve been holding onto holding
Onto holding onto holding and
I think that it is time to let you go
I think that it is time to let you go
 
Time After Time
 
Lying in bed
I hear the clock tick and think of you
Caught up in circles
Confusion is nothing new
Flashback
Warm nights
Almost left behind
Suitcase of memories
Time after
 
Sometimes you’ll picture me
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me
I can’t hear what you’ve said
Then you say
“Go slow”
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds
 
If you’re lost, you can look, and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall, I will catch you, I’ll be waiting
Time after time
 
After my picture fades
And darkness has turned to grey
Watching through windows
You’re wondering if I’m okay
Secrets stolen
From deep inside
The drum beats out of time
 
If you’re lost, you can look and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you I’ll be waiting
Time After Time
 
Something in My Heart
 
Something in my head is moving
Something in my heart won't
Keeps getting more confusing
And it won't let up
 
Suddenly my heart is rising to the very top of the             top of the top
And it won't stop it won't stop it won't stop
Something in my head is screaming: give it up           
 
Something in my brain's insisting time for flight
But something in my heart's resisting like a warrior knight
All I can do is pray the gloomiest day allays the night
‘Cause I don't  know what's             right
And I don't think I should but my heart is determined to fight
 
            It started like this
            You wanted to kiss me
            And I resisted for awhile
            Now it's going like this
            Do you even miss me?
            ‘Cause we haven't spoken    
            And we used to talk all the time
            But we never talk anymore
 
Something in my heart is breaking, and I don't know why
All I do is get to thinking, and then I'm crying
All I can do without talking to you is sit and wonder why
Something wrong still seems so right
Time to Say Goodbye
 
You, it's true, indubitably do what you do without regard for what I want too
I tried, I bided my time
 
But no more
I'm walking out the door
I am not coming back
And you can count on that
 
When I go
There will be trumpets and whistles to blow
And sirens to sound
Confetti and streamers pouring down
 
You, it's true, were never true to true blue
Though I adored you through and through
I cried, I kept changing my mind
 
But no more     
I’m walking out the door           
I am not coming back
And you can count on that
 
When I go
There will be trumpets and whistles to blow
And sirens to sound
Confetti and streamers pouring down
 
            Why does it seem like you think that you're the open one?
            When I’m the one with open eyes
            With open heart
            With open palm?
 
When I go
There will be trumpets and whistles to blow
And sirens to sound
Confetti and streamers pouring down
 
When I go
I hear the close of a song
I may be wrong
But where I’m at
Is I am through
And it is finally time to say
Goodbye to you
Sonnet #12
 
Sonnet Number 12
Theme: Letting Go Again
One of these days I'll write a love song
Someone will stay and life will go on
 
I saw your face
in dreams when I was young
Now I can't remember
It's been so long, so long
 
So long, So long…
 
Movies flew like breezes through me
I heard bells and cameras swooned
Panned left then right
He pulled me tight
Music swelled and made me woozy
When he looked
When he looked right through me
 
I really loved him
I thought he loved me too
Told me he fell in love at first sight
Couldn't deny the look in his eyes
 
He sang to me
His unrequited love
So I gave my heart,
And he played with it so rough
 
So long, so long…
 
Anger surged like liquor through me
Cameras spun
I come undone
His kisses fool me
He looked right through me
It began, then it was over
 
Sonnet Number 12
Theme: Letting Go Again
One of these days I’ll write a love song
Someone will stay and life will go on
 
Maggie
 
The first song of love made me smile
I thank the notes we sang awhile
And though it hurts to say goodbye
And I am certain
I will cry
I hope you visit my dreams at night
 
Maggie, Maggie…
 
Cuddled up on the couch last night
Saw you blink and say goodnight
It sure was hard to say goodbye
We sang the hobo’s lullaby
It’s not the last time I’ll see your eyes
 
Maggie, Maggie…
 
I love you baby girl
Come and play basketball
I love you sister girl
You are my little pearl
Come and visit my dreams tonight
 
Maggie, Maggie…
 
La première chanson d'amour m'a fait sourire
Je remercie les notes que nous avons chantées
Et même si ca fait mal de dire au revoir
Une chose est certaine c'est que je pleurerai
J'ai hâte de te voir dans mes rêves cette nuit
 
Come and play basketball
My little baby girl
Come and kiss Scout goodnight
Visit my dreams tonight
Come steal chocolate from the table
 
Maggie, Maggie…